An earlier post contained errors, and was published in error, primarily the result of careless clicking when closing the draft. Excuses abound. Mea culpa. mrsdkm
It is July 31, 2015, and amidst all the rancor about a dead lion named Cecil and the horrifying blame-shifting of purveyors of dead babies, there are reminders that tonight the rare phenomenon of a blue moon will appear in the sky. But this won't be a blue moon; it will be the occurrence of a second full moon appearing in the space of a month. However, there are times when the moon appears blue. Where the cycle of the blue moon can be predicted, the blue moon phenomenon can't. It only happens when there have been unexpected atmospheric influences such as a volcano eruption or wildfires, each spreading particles in the air and creating a filter through which the moon appears blue. The moon itself is still the same, still reflecting light from the sun in the way it always has, still the same crater-pocked, bright white surface. Debris spreading about the atmosphere between here and there is what makes our eyes perceive the moon as blue. It truly is a phenomenon in its unexpectedness, happening "only once in a blue moon", so to speak, or as rare as a month with two full moons.
Decluttering my mind, that is. As much as my house needs it, my mind needs it more. It keeps filling up and things slip out, sometimes lost forever, sometimes through my lips, which can occasionally be awkward and embarrassing and the cause of strife and confusion. So, the blog is here to declutter my brain.
There will be starts and stutters and messes to clean up. Here's the deal: I think of a dozen topics for blog posts every day. I formulate some structure of a piece in my mind with compelling intros and arguments, and I even write most of them down -- on scraps of paper, in journals, in an app on my phone -- but they never make it into completed posts. Who am I kidding? "Completed"? They never make it beyond scratched out phrases and sentences, or links to the quotes or articles that have triggered the musings. But I see them as a treasure trove of freshness and vibrancy and contemplation and inspiration, just waiting to be coaxed into words and prepared for debut.
The problem is that I never get any of it to the stage where I feel I'm ready to reveal. A failure again, as my poor neglected blog home sits empty, waiting for words to fill it. Anxiety builds as I glance from the vacant blog space to the scattered and incomplete mess on my desk. The voices in my head argue:
Why start something if you're not going to finish it? You can't post anything until all this mess is cleaned up!
(Woah, does that sound like my voice speaking to my kids about their cluttered bedrooms, or what?)
Then I might as well close it down, because it'll never be perfectly ready, 'cause it's me.
I'm sure the anxiety stems in part from the fact that, as a professional editor, I am of that annoying breed of people who absolutely freak out if everything isn't perfect at the reveal, whether upon publication of an article or presentation of a meal. I do the same thing when it comes to having people over at my house. I love having house guests. I love cooking for them and enjoying their company and giving of myself as much as I can. But I hate cleaning my house and I'm really bad at it even when I tackle the task. So all of those "We'll have to have you guys out some time" sort-of invites never really materialize into a date on the calendar. Because my house is never ready.
Laura Miller aka mrsdkmiller
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Her March Isn't Over
Across the River
When God Pries My Fingers Off My Children
Life's Defining Moments
To the Christian Wife Who Berated Her Husband in Front of My Daughter
Zeal and Grace in France
An Unconventional Love Story
Seeing What's in Front of Our Eyes
Remembering Why I Called You Hannah
Love Your Sister.
Because He Came Home
Go Valiantly! A Prayer for New Homeschooling Moms
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