The hand was stretched out before me, palm up.
I searched through my assets, frantically counting up my balances, determining what I could do to satisfy the demand. Nothing. Nothing of substance to present as a token of my credibility, any promises that I would pay when I had the chance mocked and rejected.
And so my collector wiped clean my holdings, picking up every representation of value and worth I had held on to so dearly, handling my goods like they were a hindrance to him. And banished me from the game.
"I'm sorry," my husband says often.
Not because he's done anything wrong, or to offend or hurt me. But just because he can tell I am unsettled, discontent, disappointed at that moment in life in general.
He thinks he has failed because I am not happy all the time, that he needs to wrap me in all the comforts of this life.
You’ve done it yourself. Open the refrigerator door, close the refrigerator door. Check the cupboards. Back to the refrigerator. The produce drawer, the back of the middle shelf. Maybe you’ll find what you’re looking for in the freezer. Ice cream? No, not even ice cream will satisfy. Not today.
Laura England Miller